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Seasons

So thankful to have made it through 2021 and through our Covid Christmas season to a brand new year. My word for this year is PEACE and that is basically all I have put on my vision board so far this year and it’s January 27.

I want to hang on to PEACE as long as I can and camp out there a bit. Last year was a year of Marty very close to death with Covid in the hospital, my mom fracturing two bones in her back with a fall, and I even ended up in the ER where I had never been before after a UTI.

We all made it through, and ended the year with Marty and I having Covid for Christmas. So thankful that my mom didn’t get it while she was staying with us, and we sat all the Christmas things out on the porch for our kids to get.

Let’s fast forward to now. I’ve had much of a sabbatical to regroup, relaunch, reinvent, and retreat. I spent a few days thinking all dreams were over and that I was just older now and I could watch the young ones enjoy their dreams. But God! He turned it around.

I think when Marty had to sit all those days in the hospital feeling like he was going down, it was a trauma for him. I kept wanting to fix it all year and wanted to fix my mom’s situation too. I could do a little but my hands were tied in many ways. I had to let them go through whatever they had to go through.

We do have to let others go through whatever they have to go through and deal with whatever they have to deal with. As the year went on some things started falling into place and finally when Marty and I sat in the hospital room getting the monoclonal antibodies I believe Marty got even more healing emotionally, this time he wasn’t alone. This time we were conquering it together. I had no idea that something like that would bring him back to himself, but it has.

Maybe he felt abandoned by God before? Maybe he felt like a failure? I’m not sure, but we definitely have to all remember not to judge what others are going through and remember that we are all in this together. There are no definite answers for any of the madness!

Today I’m feeling more slowed down, more in the moment. Not jumping right in, I am thinking a moment before I say yes. I even had a couple of dreams that took me back to where I used to live and people that I used to know there. It made we call old friends and check on people. I found out many were gone from this earth now.

This gave me a kick in the booty to remember the dreams that are inside of me. I’m still here! I’ve got things to do while I’m here. Marty and I have things to do together! We can’t let distractions and opposition stop that! It’s a new season and time to move forward with all the things that we have learned along the way!

Slowly I’m dreaming again!

If we are still here we can’t stop!

If you need help getting back up let me know!

We ARE all in this together!

There is strength in numbers!

See y’all soon!!

Love, jill 🌸

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Peace for 2022

I have decided for sure now that Peace is my word for 2022. I have learned early on how to live with “Peace in the midst of a storm.” I have learned it even more through the year of 2021.

It is very important that we all shut out the clutter and chatter in our minds and listen to that still, small voice. It’s the voice that shows us our flow in the earth. It’s the voice that keeps us in peace no matter what.

Every voice that is speaking to us is not the voice that we need to hear. The voice I need to hear for 2022 is the voice of Peace. I just received a planner for 2022 for a gift and this is what the first page said and it’s confirmation to my soul!

There are moments when I think about all of the honors that my dad received from the army with WWII. I’m sure there were many moments that he had to choose to agree with PEACE in his mind and not war. I believe he left that legacy with me and my call is to help people live in peace in their lives and in their mind, not anger and torment.

Politics is not my call… my call is helping people walk through normalcy. If it is your call I applaud you, but it is not mine. There were three angels that were left behind when my dad passed to help me walk this out. Faith, Courage, and Provision. They are helping me to fulfill this call.

Something that I have seen in 2021 more than anything else is that mostly what I am doing is behind the scenes. I won’t be in a big platform in front of people. I will be in the trenches. God taught me to see that what He thinks is important for my life is what is important, not what I think is important. I’m re-invented. It wasn’t easy but I receive it. I may be misunderstood and rejected at times but that’s okay. I don’t have FOMO…”fear of missing out” anymore.

My lane is a good lane for me. Your lane is a good lane for you. I love your lane. I am for your lane. I’ve learned how to accept people’s different ideas and beliefs and not be against them even though they are not mine. I’m for peace.

My hope is that you are blessed through 2022!

I hope that you find your flow and your purpose!

We all are important and have important purpose on the earth!

My hope is that you will find your call and purpose!

If you need help in doing that… let me know!

Happy 2022!

See you next week!

jill 🌸

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2021 is Winding Down

Only a few more weeks to find out the true transformation that has taken place during this year.

What have the trials produced? It is really true that hard things that we go through will make us stronger in the long run. Even if it’s not something that we want to hear or even think about. Life is just not always going to be smooth and easy on this earth.

Some seasons will be smoother and more joyful and others will feel like trudging through quicksand. One thing is for sure, they both pass. They do move on to the next season.

It was quite unbelievable that today there were several “suddenly” things that happened. Like several things that were just amazing miracles. An auto that had been sitting in the back yard that sold. A grandchild that had been suffering a heart defect healed. My husband told by the Veteran’s Administration that they were doing a back pay on all money that he had spent on medication back to a certain point! And last, all of his tests came back great after having Covid earlier this year.

Last week I was seriously starting to feel like things were getting hopeless. That is ALWAYS a lie! Things are NEVER hopeless, no matter what! The battle is usually in our mind and lies that we believe. If we are not feeling well, we are a little more vulnerable for falling for lies. Falling into negativity is a slippery slope.

There are many things to look forward to in our lives. Picking out the word for 2022 is something I look forward to. That’s a tradition for me… I’m thinking about my word now but haven’t settled on it 100% yet. One thing that I do know is that Marty and I have been reinvented this year and the main thing is eating more healthy. I think we’ve had some mindset changes also. We’ve had many things be a SLOW process when we would have liked to move a little faster… that’s okay though….sometimes:

I remember about thirty years ago hearing Joyce Meyers husband making that remark at one of her conferences and it stuck in my mind.

That has seemed to be a true statement this year about many things. I don’t think I have ever had this certain thing hit home as much as it has this year. It’s seemed like all of the things that used to work in the past changed and there were new rules to the game and I had to adjust.

I am adjusting and I am moving forward. One thing that I will not choose to be and that is stuck. Whatever I have to go through to be unstuck will work for me.

The next few weeks I’m praying and seeking my word for 2022 and I’m dreaming about the days ahead and seeing what God wants to happen in my life next year. I’m closing out the transforming that took place in 2021 and I’m grateful for the wonderful miracles that all happened in one day this week.

•We never know what can all turn around in just one day!

•We can’t listen to lies in our mind…we have to fight for truth!

•Reach out and talk to someone if you are sinking, we are never really alone!

•Do you have a word for 2022? Sort of a theme for your life next year?

•There is ALWAYS hope no matter what!

•I’m here if you need me!

See ya’ll next week!

jill🌸

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Re-invent

When I picked that word for this year I felt highly inspired by God to do it. He must have been thinking that it was time to shake things up a bit.

Hebrews 12:26 At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, “Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.”[e]27 The words “once more” indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain.

What this says to me is that sometimes things have to be shaken up to get rid of what needs to change. I am not saying in any way that God brings bad things upon us. No way! God is good, loving, kind in every way… He is LOVE. He handles us like we are HIS children. If we have to shake a piece of candy out of a child’s hand sometimes it’s not so pretty. He’s teaching us to hold onto everything with open hands.

The first really big shakeup was in May when Marty came down with Covid and had to go into the hospital. He was very sick. He was a very healthy vibrant person before he got this virus. It was unbelievable to watch him deteriorate. Days and days of 103 temp. Going to hospital only to get sent home the first time. More days of 103 and returning to hospital almost gone from the earth. He did have an amazing miracle in the hospital after five days. Gold came into the room and his lungs started popping like Rice Krispies. He was home in two days.

He came home on oxygen and was still very ill. I had to fight for my faith at that time to know that it would finally pass. I was taken back to the thing that I have learned all my life… it’s a process.

Yes, it’s been a process…it’s lead me to do things that I wouldn’t have normally done before. Do things that I feel led to do even though he doesn’t. It’s made me have to “Let Go and Let God more,” and practice the things that I’ve learned in recovery.

I took two trips this year, one to my Lemongrass Spa business conference in Orlando which was wonderful. Just a small time later to visit our daughter’s family and five grandkids. It was there that I noticed a personality change in Marty. He was not the same as he was before. Could he be being “reinvented?” Could I also be?

We got home and things went well, it felt good to be home. I joined in something that I felt very called to do at my church and had been waiting for my whole life. He didn’t want to commit to it. He was behind me doing it, but he wasn’t ready. You know what? That’s ok. It takes time to get over being that sick and Marty and I were in a process! I even realize as I’m writing this that his strength is still not 100% yet and it takes time for some things.

The biggest blessing happened in October when we got to go with my brother to Arlington Cemetery and see my dads funeral. It was such a surreal experience. It really touched Marty’s heart because he had also been in the army and has been walking out transformation from PTSD.

As soon as we arrived at Washington D.C. I got the call that my mom had fallen and was being taken to the hospital. They went ahead the next day and saw some sites and I spent my time in a hotel room finding care for my mama. They X-rayed her and no broken bones. Two weeks and much pain later she went to another hospital to find two fractures in her back. This all was lots to process! Could I be being reinvented?

Then a young man that I hadn’t known very long was cleaning a gun and accidentally lost his life. He was only 13 and turned 14 on my birthday. Just a day or so after the tragedy. This has changed our community of believers. Could we all be being reinvented?

My mom is still in rehab and slowly, slowly starting to walk with much help. I’m sure she’s getting tired of not being able to go home for so long. She seems to do well a few days and then not be able to do the physical therapy for a few days. More process going on. We have had to go in and find her clothes after laundry and get them all back into her room. We have had to personally talk to nurses and beg them to shower her. We’ve had to call a talk to the Alliance in our region to help get her the care there that she is supposed to be getting. All new territory for me.

Then the last thing…I had been on medication for an infection and at the tenth day my fever shot up to 102.5 and stayed all night. I went to urgent care and got tested for everything and they gave me a strong antibiotic shot plus sent me home with strong antibiotics. In a few hours no fever…went home and rested. That night fever again so I decided to go to the ER. Tests all came back great. In the meantime I start getting texts from my ex husband that he is getting all my bills from anything medical, what? I don’t even know what his address is? Ok just like always in my life… I have to trust something bigger and more powerful than me to deal with all of this….

What is being reinvented in me? Time will tell when the process is over. But I do know that it led me back to sitting still and writing. Letting my voice be heard, and digging deeper. It’s almost time to pick a word for next year and I think my word for next year will be “Peace!”

Numbers 6:24 to 26

24 “‘“The Lord bless you
and keep you;
25 the Lord make his face shine on you
and be gracious to you;
26 the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace.”’

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After the pause

Our whole month of May was on pause in some ways but very active in other ways. As for social events we were in quarantine, as for private events we were very busy.

To be perfectly honest, Marty almost left the planet. I watched an extremely active, nonstop person within a few hours get taken down to nothing.

That’s when all the arguments about “should I get the vaccine, should I not”…get brought down to the reality of, “What are you saying Father?”

Each and every person has to make their own decisions about things. After Marty was on remdesivir for four days, along with our Heavenly Father entering the room, he got a miraculous healing and his chest started popping and cracking and he was home two days later.

Then I get things sent to me about how bad remdesivir is and I didn’t ask anyone for any information. The same way the day after my first vaccine I got information sent to me about how damaging the vaccine is to your body.

How are y’all sorting these things out? I have to go by life experiences. First off, my ninety three year old mother got her vaccine and it gave her freedom to leave her apartment again after a year. Second, my brother is a pharmacist and has taken a job giving the injections.

One afternoon I just had a feeling that I needed to go get the vaccine. I called the local pharmacy and set up a time later that day. I told them I wanted the J&J shot and they wrote me down. I called my brother and talked to him about it and he said, “I would get the Moderna,” I called and changed it to that.

It was so ironic the next day after I got the shot that J&J got put on a pause because of side effects.

Three weeks later, Marty got a fever and tested positive, I tested negative and made it through the whole next month fighting Covid with him and didn’t get it. That is my experience and story.

Someone else’s story may be different. I respect your story, can you respect mine? I literally watched my Heavenly Father rise up above ALL things and save my husband’s life. There are no conspiracy theories that can figure that out. It’s beyond reason.

I encourage you to hear the Father’s voice for you. What is He telling you to do about everything? I’m always checking that out. It’s about His will, not my will be done.

If you need any help hearing from the Father for you, let us know! We are a no judgment zone to help sort things out!

Much love to you today!

We all have our own story!

Let’s not judge!

Be kind!

Love never fails!

See you soon!

You matter and you are the best!

See you soon!

jill🌸