Morning…Day3

Hi…I thought I lost Day 2, but I found it!!! Yayee catching on to this thing!! Doesn’t that show you that you can catch onto something after only 3 days!! Wow, I don’t have it licked but I am catching on!! Little by little we can conquer things if we don’t give up!!

To be honest, I typed 624 pages on here and then found Day 2 which changed the whole way that Day 3 needed to go so I clicked edit, erased the page, and here we go!!! SHIFT!!

Well, let’s talk a little more about where I got to travel in my new life of surrender!! When I went in the salon that morning, first thing I did was to tell the young man I worked with what had happened to me, after being told that I would be killed if I told anything. He asked if I was ok and I said, “Sure.”

This led to my friend, another stylist, that told her client, a police officer, about it. The officer asked if I could talked to someone else about it and I said, “Yes.”

Later, that week I met with a lady from the Rape Crisis Center and she showed me a photo album. I picked his picture out in there, and then had to pick him out of a lineup. Not exactly a fun procedure for this 23 year old that had grown up with a fairly sheltered life with Mom, Dad, one brother, one dog, dinner on the table every evening, in a very nice brick home in a very nice, safe neighborhood.

I must say that I was already slanted this direction. I never did really fit in the box and was meant for other things.

So, my friends had to go pick him out too,  because they had passed him as I went over to watch their little boy that night. They came home telling me that he said, “You tell her I will kill her if I get out.”

You know what? That was a risk I had to take because I didn’t want to see it happen to someone else. Which, I did, later on in years, see in the paper that he was out and molested a little girl that his wife babysat for….that did not make me happy.

I learned that he had been abused as a child (surprise?) and his brother had even burned their house down. So I learned not to hate a person, to hate that dark thing driving them.

I learned about the different kinds of people, their backgrounds, the demons tormenting them. I learned how to get free of my own.

I remember laying awake all night crying for something to change. I won’t ever say that God brings any bad things on you but I will say that He is the potter and I am the clay. And the outcome has been good.

This is just a very little bit of what I have walked through. You will hear it in the days ahead. I only hope that it can touch your heart, and help you understand the things people have gone through and the reasons they do things, and know that we can’t take things so personal.

Enjoy your day!! No matter what!! Don’t think of what you have lost!! Think of what you still have!

See you tomorrow