So thankful to have made it through 2021 and through our Covid Christmas season to a brand new year. My word for this year is PEACE and that is basically all I have put on my vision board so far this year and it’s January 27.
I want to hang on to PEACE as long as I can and camp out there a bit. Last year was a year of Marty very close to death with Covid in the hospital, my mom fracturing two bones in her back with a fall, and I even ended up in the ER where I had never been before after a UTI.
We all made it through, and ended the year with Marty and I having Covid for Christmas. So thankful that my mom didn’t get it while she was staying with us, and we sat all the Christmas things out on the porch for our kids to get.
Let’s fast forward to now. I’ve had much of a sabbatical to regroup, relaunch, reinvent, and retreat. I spent a few days thinking all dreams were over and that I was just older now and I could watch the young ones enjoy their dreams. But God! He turned it around.
I think when Marty had to sit all those days in the hospital feeling like he was going down, it was a trauma for him. I kept wanting to fix it all year and wanted to fix my mom’s situation too. I could do a little but my hands were tied in many ways. I had to let them go through whatever they had to go through.
We do have to let others go through whatever they have to go through and deal with whatever they have to deal with. As the year went on some things started falling into place and finally when Marty and I sat in the hospital room getting the monoclonal antibodies I believe Marty got even more healing emotionally, this time he wasn’t alone. This time we were conquering it together. I had no idea that something like that would bring him back to himself, but it has.
Maybe he felt abandoned by God before? Maybe he felt like a failure? I’m not sure, but we definitely have to all remember not to judge what others are going through and remember that we are all in this together. There are no definite answers for any of the madness!
Today I’m feeling more slowed down, more in the moment. Not jumping right in, I am thinking a moment before I say yes. I even had a couple of dreams that took me back to where I used to live and people that I used to know there. It made we call old friends and check on people. I found out many were gone from this earth now.
This gave me a kick in the booty to remember the dreams that are inside of me. I’m still here! I’ve got things to do while I’m here. Marty and I have things to do together! We can’t let distractions and opposition stop that! It’s a new season and time to move forward with all the things that we have learned along the way!
Slowly I’m dreaming again!
If we are still here we can’t stop!
If you need help getting back up let me know!
We ARE all in this together!
There is strength in numbers!
See y’all soon!!
Love, jill 🌸
