Month: January 2017

Grace is a wonderful subject. Was just at a conference recently where the speaker spoke about Grace. I’ve always heard that it was unmerited Favor, which is part of it. But the main thing that Grace is, is empowerment.

Empowerment to do something that you are not able to do. For instance, I am being given the Grace to write this blog. This is something I would have NEVER done. It is when supernatural power takes over where you are not capable. I have had this show up many times in life and I am sure you have too.

When I think about a time I had just gone through a divorce. God supernaturally let me buy my house but I didn’t even work at that time. Just had a few clients that I was doing in my home. It kept going through my mind, how am I going to pay for this house? I just knew I would make it though.

About 3 weeks before my first house payment was due, I was just praying to God and getting scared and at that time I broke a poverty spirit off of me. I can explain that later if you want to know about it.

Within 2 days I got a call from my good friend’s sister. She was frantic. She asked me if I could take on all of my friend’s clientele because she had been in an accident. Now that was Grace. My friend even eventually started doing something different in her life because she wanted to change professions. I had a wonderful clientele of the most magnificent customers. That Grace empowered my girls and I to make it.

There are times when people are given Grace to do something when they don’t even ask for it. When they are not even capable of asking for it. When they don’t even know how to ask for it. God is good. Sometimes He’s loving us and doing things when we don’t even know it.

I just say Thank You God for your Grace. For giving us ability to do things sometimes when we can’t. For making things fall into place when they are impossible. Amazing Grace!

Try to think of times when Grace has been poured out in your life…

Its all good!!

Tomorrow❤

 

Wo!! Let’s talk about pretending. This is a HUGE subject!! Many people are walking around pretending that they are ok but they are not. I think after you pretend long enough you go into a state of denial and think you are ok. I have learned that shame is a huge thing that causes that. I learned that in RTF. (Restoring the Foundations Ministries)

First something happens to you that you are ashamed of, then you get in fear that people will find out, so you try to control it. You can control by pretending that everything’s is ok. Thats almost like lying, pretending that everything is ok. I’m not saying that you need to tell everyone in the whole world about everything, I’m just saying you have to deal with things.

Lets get real!! I haven’t had any choice but to get real!! Do you know how freeing it is to get real about things? Really when I made the move here, that’s part of what made me lose my voice. I would share my story and people weren’t used to the transparency I had. I could feel that my story was not being celebrated so I started being quiet, and being ashamed of my story. I started feeling like I had to pretend that I was “normal” like they were.

What a bunch of bunk!! I’m telling you everyone has an imperfect life and stuff to deal with! We might as well be honest and learn how to help one another, instead of acting like we have it all together and don’t have anything to learn.

It can turn into pride. Pride is not good. You will not make it forever operating on pride. We have to always be teachable from people. You can’t trust everyone, but I know that you can learn from people that you can’t even imagine you could learn from. God even used a donkey to teach people.

Proverbs 16:18 Pride goes before destruction. A haughty spirit before a fall.

Sorry if I’m sounding a little preachy, I hate that, but hey if we think we are all that and won’t listen to anyone, we could fall flat in our face, like I have done many times. There are always little warnings for us along the way. We just need to start noticing and listening to them. We gotta be teachable.

I was so cray that even after I got a divorce from my husband the second time, he started coming around wanting to go to church with me, acting like he was getting it together again. One day my daughter said, “Mom, you’ve already married him twice!”……Yah! Duh! Set a boundary with him the next day and ended it!!

I had a natural gift of compassion, mercy, and love. What I had to learn was, toughness, boundaries and dealing with things. Let’s face it Jesus did get mad about things. I think He still does with us sometimes to get us to wake up and change!! It’s for our own good!! When we keep being stubborn He will let us go through consequences so we will wake up!

When something goes on and on and on sometimes it’s time to let it go and be done with it!! Unchecked mercy is lethal!! I encourage you, if you have feelings that you are in denial about, or a situation that you are having “faith” that it will change. You need to make sure you are hearing Gods voice and not the enemy’s voice just keeping you distracted from what you are really supposed to be doing!!

You know what? Our problems are really no big deal? We have them so blasted out in our mind and to God they are itsy bitsy. He did create the earth, you know!! He knows how to draw us back. He’s always waiting with open arms to welcome us back!!  We can never be perfect, do everything perfectly, and it’s not expected.

Stop pretending and “Be free!”

Feels so good to be me again!!

Tomorrow❤

Just talked to a friend that asked if I have ever experienced depression or mental illness. I would have to say with compassion for people that have dealt with it, personally I have not. I have only dealt with it by being married to someone experiencing it. I know that it is a heartbreaking, debilitating illness that is very misunderstood. I know that people do not understand and want people to snap out of it. And I know that it is not that easy. By saying I was never on an antidepressant, in no way do I mean to say that I think no one should be. I just kinda think that it’s a miracle I wasn’t, don’t you??

👍🏼❤👍🏼❤👍🏼 Thanks😊

Ya gotta know my heart❤

Emotions are a tricky thing. They can fool you. I know one thing I have learned is that you can’t be ruled by them. They can lead you astray. It’s a fine line with them. You definitely have to feel your feelings, but they aren’t the boss of your life. Again, balance.

Let’s take sad, for instance, of course it’s right to feel sad about something. But there comes a time where something, I say Holy Spirit, kicks in and says, “Ok, you’ve felt this feeling long enough. If you keep feeling this way, it’s going to lead to depression.” That little nudge is telling me it’s time to start praying and working on myself to move on.

I do understand severe depression too. One of my marriages was with a man that struggled with severe clinical depression and addiction. I will have to say, and I am bragging in no way, that miraculously through my life I have never been on an antidepressant one day. I know they are needed to help people because I’ve watched depression, I’ve seen how it works, it’s a very real thing that can take you down. The sad thing that I saw was, with some people, the help can end up the hindrance. One doctor turned into 8 doctors. So we need the right kind of help sometimes.

I also know that just because you are there doesn’t mean you have to stay there. Just because someone has called you Bi Polar doesn’t mean you will be forever. That does not have to be your identity. I’ve seen many people walk out of that and lead normal lives. There is always hope.

That’s the main thing, having hope, and faith and not giving up no matter what the situation is. I believe we have to get any amount of help we can. That could mean, prayer, recovery meetings, deliverance, inner healing,  and anything else it takes to walk it out. I’m pretty passionate about all of these things, because I’ve seen great results and change for people.

I think lots of people are numb. The bad part about numb is that you don’t feel the good things like joy, peace, and happiness. Which help keeping us going, growing, and changing. There were probably times when I didn’t feel joyful for long, long, periods of time. But that didn’t mean it was gone. I was just being bombarded with other feelings and it wasn’t time for joy yet. When it was time, it broke through again. Its ok to go through pain and suffering sometimes. That’s life. It will end if you turn to the right sources.

Another scripture,  ” Weeping will endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.”Ps. 30:5.  I choose, joy, I choose life. I choose to keep my eyes on what I am supposed to accomplish and I choose to never give up.

I remember one time I was ready to go to the doctor and I talked to my sponser at Al Anon about it. I told her, ” I think I’m depressed.” She said, “Don’t ever let that come out of your mouth again.” I was shocked!! I don’t think that was her speaking to me . I think it was my savior. He showed up like that to me because I had decided to get every amount of help that I could get.

Knock, and the door shall open. Seek and you shall find.

Prov. 15:22  Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisors they succeed!

Don’t give up! Even on bad days, months, years!! Don’t give up!!

Tomorrow❤️

 

On this subject a little bit. What I have learned is that I can’t get around any obstacle in life without love. I HAVE to come to forgiveness about things. If I would have walked around bitter my whole life I couldn’t have helped anyone. I had to forgive the rapist. I’ve had to forgive every person that ever let me down. When that is done it releases you and them both. We can’t expect imperfect, messed up people in this earth to never hurt us or let us down. Just like we let others down.

There is lots of controversy going on in our land today. There is lots of hatred, there are lots of people standing for their cause. I got Love in my heart from Jesus but the way I learned to walk it out was through Al Anon 12 step Recovery meetings. I learned there that no matter where someone comes from, we can still love one another. I learned tools there how to literally detach from them emotionally and love them anyway. Not everyone is called to walk things out the way I do, but this has been my experience. Some people are called more to defending a certain cause, but I am just called to love everyone, no matter where they come from. I’ve also had to learn the balance and boundaries in that, to remember where they end and I begin and to hold on to me.

Everyone started somewhere in their life. The Bible even states that Love is the greatest gift of all. Jesus laid down His life for people that hated Him and scorned Him. All people have to come to their own terms with that.

While I was in the years of quietness and silence, I searched myself out alot. I had to work on myself alot. I didn’t have alot of confidence. Didn’t feel like I had anything to say or even a right to say anything. I believe we all have a voice that needs to be heard and I always want to be known as someone that finds the gold in people and helps pull it out of them. Sometimes people need help finding that and need help walking that out. Sometimes they have been told so many lies all their life, from people and in their own mind, that they need help knowing what their voice is. I did…

When I love people the best I can and honor them, I find such a supernatural favor comes upon anything that I’m doing. That shows me that God is working for my cause to make it happen because He knows I will treat His people that He created  the way He wants them treated. Am I perfect at it, no, but it is my heart and what I’m working toward.

Do I get mad at people? Yes…Do I not understand people sometimes? Yes… but do I have to come to forgive? Yes and do I have to SHIFT a little to understand? Yes..

Keep learning, growing, and walking it out!

As Danny Silk from Bethel says, “Keep your love on!”

Tomorrow❤….